Sunday Nights

So It's Sunday night...I'm sitting here listening to some KanKick and I gotta say, what is it about Sunday night that is just so amazingly...boring and depressing?

I mean it's not like my weekend hasn't been interesting. Heck, my whole week has been quite interesting. My boss spoke to me on Thursday about wanting to give me some more responsibility and pay some more. Perhaps this could be the beginning of a wonderful friendship. But for some reason, half of all my new friendships end up being a gift and a curse. I've been missing my ex more in the last few days. It's strange how time doesn't really matter in these situations. It could 5 years from now but if I need qualities that someone provided over 5 years prior...I'd be missing them as well.

I guess it's just the fact that it's so rare to find a girl who's real these days. Or perhaps I'm just picky and my standards are misconstrued. In any case...I think I'm going to give up on relationships for a while. I'm not interested in anyone at the moment...and I guess it's a good thing. I can fully concentrate on myself and devote myself to what I enjoy...music, video games, and masturbation...at the same time.

Why can't people just be real these days? I mean why be so twisted in what you really want? I can't stand it when human beings don't know what the hell they want so they will preach something and practice another. If you don't want to do something...don't. If you can't stand your best friend...stop hanging out with him...if you don't want to be with your ex...stop leading him on. If you're not going to walk into my room when I'm jerking off...don't walk near my door in such an aggressive manner as it scares me into closing my video player.

BTW...what is it about porn that we're so ashamed of? Why can't we just say "Hey mom...don't go upstairs for about 15 minutes because I want to jerk off and I don't want you walking in on me."

Why do we have to be so secretive about it? Is it a thrill to keep these things a secret? Perhaps taboo to the idea of doing things in the dark where no one can see you.

Sexual tension...what is it about having a beautiful girl in your house that makes you want to throw them on your bed and just molest the bejeezus out of them? Maybe I'm alone in this department...or maybe it's the fact I haven't been laid in quite some time.

Oh I just watched 'I Now Pronounce You Chuck & Larry'...I totally felt like I wanted to puke during one scene. Actually I think every guy in the theater wanted to puke. Damn you David Spade...damn you.

I downloaded this porn video of a girl trying to seduce her teacher. Why do we find 'clueless virgin whores' so damn hot? I've yet to meet an actual virgin who could fuck the shit out of me. It's like an oxymoron...like a hung Asian or a black dude who doesn't want to be a rapper. It's just non-existent.

Anyways...I'm just rambling on. Stay tuned on Wednesday. I'm starting a new blog series. I think you'll enjoy it.